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[ukan]

This is Lark Tennant, leave a message.

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Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

Lark.

[And he's already told Iris this. Already told Jon. So there's no point in hiding.]

I want to end the fucking world.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

And what happens after you do?

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

Who cares? I don't necessarily have to survive it.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

That's not what I asked.

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

Then let me spell it out.

Then I die.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

[Patiently:] I know.

So what's the point of ending the world? For you to devote your whole life to it.

[There are always deeper reasons, even if the person acting isn't aware of it. He has no idea how self-aware John is, or if he's just going to lean on the excuse of it being his brother's vision.]

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

[An unusual wave of emotion:] Because they fucking deserve it.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

For their Sins? [But his tone indicates he doesn't buy that, at least not as the real reason, the one driving everything else.]

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

[This comes after a moment.]

Yes.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

That seems like a justification for something you already believed.

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

How would you know such a thing?

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

I don't. Which is why I said it seems like it.

But you aren't exactly denying it.

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

...no.

No I'm not denying it.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

Then what was it your brother said that spoke to you, that made you decide to follow him? [If the Sin is just an excuse, if the hatred was already there.]

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

He's my brother. And he's right. He didn't have to say anything. I hadn't seen him in so long. And he needed me.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

[He doesn't answer at first, as pieces sift and settle uneasily into place. There's a lot missing, John is one of the more complicated people he's met and he's a lawyer: he knows how to choose his words carefully. But some of that lends a little clarity.]

If he had come to you asking you to come with him and try to save the world from someone like you are now, would you have done it?

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

I can't answer that, Lark. It's too much of a hypothetical.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

Not if your reason for joining him was simply that he was your brother, and he needed you.

Which implies that wasn't the driving factor.

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

Now, now, Lark. You're starting to get a little personal.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

This is personal for you?

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

[No, but it's straying into answers he doesn't want to talk about. There are things he'll happily say about his brothers and things he won't.]

Of course. You're asking me about my brothers. About my past.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

Something you seemed to be very at peace with.

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

I can be at peace with something and still not wish to dig as deeply into it as you're asking me to.

Re: Private; audio

[ukan]

Then are you concerned what I'd do with the information?

Re: Private; audio

[power_of_yes]

Yes, of course. I know what you are.