And this is exactly why John goes to Lark. This is why he trusts him. This is why he asks him what he won't ask anyone else.
Lark knows. Doesn't make a goddamn fuss.
"No. Penance is the fasting," he says softly, saying it aloud for the first time. "Though that's quickly becoming a necessity."
He takes off his coat, revealing a shirt with patches of blood staining along his upper arm. That comes off next, revealing the scars and tattoos that are normally hidden. WRATH along his side, cruelly crossed off. The sigil of Eden's Gate under his navel. YES in big letters along his ribs. LUST on his shoulder blade. The crossed swords underneath.
And a newly scrawled ENVY in angry red on his left arm that he reveals underneath bloody bandages.
Lark washes his hands and pulls on gloves, sets John's arm over an absorbent sheet and examines it. Realistically some of it probably needs stitches, but he won't give them because the point is the scar.
"I know you've taken care of wounds before but Alec is a doctor so I'm required to tell you to change the dressing twice a day," he drawls, cleaning the blood off, making sure all the dried bits are scrubbed off, then applying antiseptic.
"You don't have to tell me the story behind this one but I certainly won't complain if you do indulge me." It still isn't concern in his voice. He's genuinely curious; John is the only person here besides himself who adheres to a strict code, and he enjoys every time they get to talk about the Ukan path or the Power of Yes.
He lets Lark move him around at will, straightening his back and glancing down to make sure that he doesn't fuck up his work. John knows what he's doing. He knows how to make it scar. He knows how to make it look good. Once it's healed, he'll scar it again- cross it through, cut it out. For now, he'll wear it.
Once he's satisfied that Lark's not going to do anything to mess up the lettering, he seems to relax.
"There is something here I desire," he says, keeping the story vague. If Jon's going to tell the other wardens about it, there's nothing John can do about it. "Desire more...anything I've ever wanted. Something that someone else wants."
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Mine is this: me telling you what I learn about what's happening is not a quid pro quo. You deserve to know what's going to happen to us. Period.
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Hm.
[But he's going to get to the point.]
If I need something, how many questions will you ask?
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What do you need?
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I'll get it through other means, then.
Wouldn't want to end up in Zero.
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Making me dependent on you, Lark?
That's not a good look.
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I said I'd tell you what wardens are saying? That's what they decided about you: to deny you things based on something you hadn't even done.
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Iris?
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But in the meantime, I need a bandage.
Not for anyone other than myself, before you ask.
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[For John's sake and his own suspicions about this wound, he marks this thread private retroactively and from this point on]
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Come over to 404.
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He has his coat on, but it probably won't cover the smell of blood - John's blood. There's no apparent injury on him. At least, not at first.
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"Was this penance or something else?" He isn't overly concerned, because John isn't.
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Lark knows. Doesn't make a goddamn fuss.
"No. Penance is the fasting," he says softly, saying it aloud for the first time. "Though that's quickly becoming a necessity."
He takes off his coat, revealing a shirt with patches of blood staining along his upper arm. That comes off next, revealing the scars and tattoos that are normally hidden. WRATH along his side, cruelly crossed off. The sigil of Eden's Gate under his navel. YES in big letters along his ribs. LUST on his shoulder blade. The crossed swords underneath.
And a newly scrawled ENVY in angry red on his left arm that he reveals underneath bloody bandages.
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"I know you've taken care of wounds before but Alec is a doctor so I'm required to tell you to change the dressing twice a day," he drawls, cleaning the blood off, making sure all the dried bits are scrubbed off, then applying antiseptic.
"You don't have to tell me the story behind this one but I certainly won't complain if you do indulge me." It still isn't concern in his voice. He's genuinely curious; John is the only person here besides himself who adheres to a strict code, and he enjoys every time they get to talk about the Ukan path or the Power of Yes.
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Once he's satisfied that Lark's not going to do anything to mess up the lettering, he seems to relax.
"There is something here I desire," he says, keeping the story vague. If Jon's going to tell the other wardens about it, there's nothing John can do about it. "Desire more...anything I've ever wanted. Something that someone else wants."
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But he doesn't know how much he wants to say.
"Something that someone else has, I mean. Something that was more important, in the moment, than God."
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