Uh... I don't know, I never heard of The English Patient. I like romcoms, but I like some serious stuff, too. Like Pretty Woman; that ain't totally a comedy.
I saw that one. Actually, I kind of liked it; you know how everyone has a Hollywood fantasy? Something that would only really be sexy, or fun, in a movie?
I did. A barely eighteen year old named Jason. He'd do some awful things just for a smile and a candy bar, so I took him in and I made him into something other people would fear the way he had once feared them.
...But I don't love him and of course I never did anything with him besides turning him into a lycanthrope, so it wasn't quite the same as my fantasy.
[Tiffany, who has also done things in exchange for smiles and little meaningless gifts, looks down at her lap, her mouth twitching somewhere between a smile and a frown.]
[Lark hears the pause, and he knows a tiny bit about Tiffany but not enough about her past to do more than worry he's stepped on her feelings somewhere.]
He did. Maria, she's the girl in charge of my pack. She's- she's tough as nails, but she loves Jason and she makes sure he never feels alone or abandoned or unwanted.
I... I got family. It ain't like they hate me. We love each other, of course we do; we're family.
[But it hadn't been the sort of love she felt she could depend on, and it had never made her feel less alone in the world. The Doggetts enjoyed each others' company and had each others' backs, generally, but they were not loving or demonstrative with each other. She remembers her brothers beating people up in her honor and her mother telling jokes and making her laugh, but she can't remember the last time she heard I love you from any of them.]
I wish you could see what pack life is like. I was never wanted for who I was as a human, either; just for what I could give. It's not like that in the pack.
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[No judgement, Lark.]
I'll find something good.
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Well, that one was mine. Rescuing a prostitute.
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...But I don't love him and of course I never did anything with him besides turning him into a lycanthrope, so it wasn't quite the same as my fantasy.
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Did he ever find people who loved him?
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He did. Maria, she's the girl in charge of my pack. She's- she's tough as nails, but she loves Jason and she makes sure he never feels alone or abandoned or unwanted.
...Do you have people who love you, back home?
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[But it hadn't been the sort of love she felt she could depend on, and it had never made her feel less alone in the world. The Doggetts enjoyed each others' company and had each others' backs, generally, but they were not loving or demonstrative with each other. She remembers her brothers beating people up in her honor and her mother telling jokes and making her laugh, but she can't remember the last time she heard I love you from any of them.]
I don't have people who make me feel wanted.
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I understand.
[And he does, even if he doesn't elaborate, won't explain if she doesn't ask. He wants to know about her.]
You're wanted here. But I think you know that already.
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[It's one of the reasons she can't stomach the idea of leaving, even if it isn't the biggest one anymore.]
It's the first time I ever was, you know.
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[Before her arrest, after her arrest, while she was in prison.]
My life was not very good, Lark. I'm sorry yours wasn't either, before you got a new one.