IC Inbox III

[ukan]

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[atowncalledtreffy]

I told you I didn't like her, and now I like her less.

It's still fucking wrong to go up to her as someone who's a god in human form and 'snap'.

[ukan]

I agree. [Even though he's certainly taken down humans who stood little chance against him, he's never been anywhere close to how powerful Shen Wei is. Carol, if she was clever and lucky, could kill Lark. She never stood a chance of it against Shen Wei.]

But that doesn't change the fact that you're spinning your wheels with this. You can be effective, Trevor. What you're doing here, not adapting your skills to the situations, isn't going to do you or anyone else any good.

You're smart. You've presented ideas before that could work better.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Five hundred years into the future and he tells me to fucking adapt.

I adapted, Lark. I adapted a year ago when I didn't kill that fucking vampire killing a man in front of me; I adapted in the pirate domain when I was living and working alongside my family's immortal enemy, and I adapted when I got kidnapped right back here like it didn't matter and didn't give the fuck up on people.

I don't care about me. I care about doing what's right. You can't tell me that Shen Wei's demotion is all that there is to it when I'm an inmate and I wouldn't have ever done what he did.

[ukan]

That's not what I mean. I want you to keep acting, Trevor. I want you to keep responding.

I just want you to do it in a way that will actually communicate to these people.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Well, that’s where my people skills begin and end.

I try giving the murder-happy ones fair warning and Zack acts like I pissed in his beer. It shouldn’t matter that death is impermanent. Right? Maybe I’m crazy to think it’s one of the worst violations here.

But even the Admiral demotes for it.

[ukan]

I'm not going to stop Zack from intervening on you. Fair warning. I won't let him go overboard, but he feels a responsibility to protect the other shipmates, and just like I don't want to stop you from your duty, I'm not going to try to stop him.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Yeah. I never expected you to.

[ukan]

All right. So brainstorm with me. Humor me.

You want Shen Wei to...feel some of what Carol did?

[atowncalledtreffy]

Sure.

I want him to understand that if he kills someone who can’t defend themselves, I’m going to kill him.

[ukan]

Because at home, if you killed him, he'd be gone. Problem solved.

He needs something more lasting here.

[atowncalledtreffy]

I’m not going to torture or maim anyone.

…I did get a few priests in the eye and slice off some fingers, sorry. I was hungover and they were trying to murder an old man.

[ukan]

[A long pause]

You think that's where I was going with this? Goddamn, Trevor.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Christ, I don't know what your standards are, Lark. The last time someone said they were going to fix me permanently, I was fully expecting some fucker with a butcher knife to come down to Zero and cut my hands off.

[ukan]

Well torture is beneath my standards. One of the things I like about you is that we at least have that in common.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Yeah, well. Congratulations to the two of us for being against torture.


I know people look at you like you're supposed to fix me. That's not an easy position to be in because I'm a stubborn asshole who hates everyone and everything here. I don't believe in this whole inmate-and-warden shit but I know other people hold it as fucking gospel.

Is it wrong to be sort of happy that you're taking a backseat and letting Zack come at me?

I don't know why I am. It just feels more...I don't know. He's got a problem with me, he should see me about it. I'm not ten and you aren't my dad.

[ukan]

[He shrugs] You're old enough to deal with consequences.

I'm curious--what do you think we're trying to 'fix'?

[atowncalledtreffy]

You know, I didn't give it much thought.

[ukan]

Then take a moment now.

[atowncalledtreffy]

[A pause, before he answers]

Well, I'm a misanthrope who hates everybody here, up to and including myself. I don't want to be here but I also don't want to be alive again, ever, and no one here will listen when I tell them, often loudly and on repeat. I answer violence with violence because even though that's the only thing that I've ever seen work, here everyone is at least four hundred years into my future where everyone is somehow nicer and more reasonable and better-smelling and appalled at the idea of answering killing with killing.

I get the sense that if I'm going to graduate, it's going to be me learning not to hate everyone on principle. It'll also be something about accepting the idea that a fucking necromancer not only didn't resurrect any of my family, he chose to separate me from them, and also bring back Dracula, the man who murdered tens of thousands, from the grave, and drag along my two closest friends to guilt me into accepting coming back from the dead with him.

And I'm tired. I'm so tired of this shit, Lark. I wanted to rest in peace. Adrian carved my gravestone and Sypha is pregnant, so I did my duty and I want to just accept my final fucking reward and go sit in Hell with my parents and sisters.

And instead I'm here. Getting into pissing contests with godlings about not murdering more humans because I can't stop doing the right thing even when I'm fucking dead and it's pointless.

[ukan]

The right thing to do hasn't changed. I'm just asking you to adjust your methods.

Work with us. Work with the wardens to do something other than nothing.

[atowncalledtreffy]

I am working with wardens. I'm working with you, aren't I? And Adrian. And Dracula, and Jon and a handful of others. And I work with inmates, Hunter and Elias and even Envy.

I just hate Zack. And Shen Wei, and Ye Zun and Daniel. I'm allowed to not like people when they do shit to me or others.

[ukan]

I never said you have to like anyone. I'm asking for your input on the consequences given to people who hurt others. For your ideas, beyond the ineffective measures of violence.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Oh I think they’re very effective.

[ukan]

Really. You think the people you've fought are going to stop acting out?

[atowncalledtreffy]

For the week, sure.