He isn't sure he wants to be back. But here he is, anyway. He's going to try, even though he's terrified it will all come crashing down on his head.

"I've never been good at balance," he says, but it's not an argument. It's - admitting a weakness. Trying to ask for help without actually asking. But Lark's already said he won't let Steve do nothing. Lark's already agreed. He'll help.

"I'm not gonna make an announcement," he adds. He - can't do that, either. He's still not proud, but more than that, the part of him that hadn't wanted to share things with the Barge as a whole, that has been burned too many times, that part is still here. Still loud. "I don't think anyone'll miss me for a few days or even a few weeks, if that's how long I end up back home - back there."

Because calling it home feels like something bitter in his mouth.