Steve laughs a little. "I don't know that engaged is a word anyone's gonna use when talking about me."

He pauses, shoves his hands in his pockets, fidgets a little. "I can't... I can't be that guy. Who tries to set up patrols, who tries to get people to work together. I can't be him again. Not - right now." If ever.

He's clearly ashamed to say it. But he has always tried to tell Lark the truth.